yes yes i know I haven't updated in months
sorry......


hmm...things have changed. The innocence level of people in this world has dropped by another 50% I think. I guess that's what happens when we grow up. No wonder we're told to have child-like faith...and Jesus welcomes children openly, "for such is the kingdom of heaven". Sigh...it's getting harder and harder to live in this world.

Well, for this morning's prayer meeting, we shared about the struggles we're facing in life. I can't post one of them here, but the bigger one is that i'm struggling a bit with the future. I think God has inspired me with big dreams and hopes, but that's the point. It seems God helped me formulate these thoughts, but I'm worried they're just my own ambitions in life. Then I'll be disappointed and really sad if they're not fulfilled... Trusting is not as easy as I want it to be...sigh...

Hmm...now for a topic i don't normally discuss about... Guys. Is it just me, or is at least half the population of guys infatuated with girls, and many for weird (i shall not specify) reasons? Then so many guys start "chasing" girls in school, even carving names and trying to find means and ways to get close to "the girl of their dreams"...It's sweet if the girl happens to like him too, but half the time, the girl gets freaked out instead. Some girls in my school have even at least 4 guys pining after them.

The main thing is, most people at this age aren't even ready for a lasting relationship. Puppy love floats around looking for trouble. I hate watching friends break up. Most of the time, they never become friends again. Maybe... that's why I would never date in JC... especially after realising how immature, stubborn, selfish and unloving I am. Sigh...seems pretty ungodly...

For the next 1 month plus, I shall study hard, and work to draw closer to God every day. When I manage to capture the light He shines on me, I will be able to reflect His light towards the rest of the world, and shime brightly, hopefully guiding the path of the lost.

If I love, I shall love the Lord.
If I hate, I shall hate the devil.
If I give, I shall give with all my heart.
If I take, I shall receive with gratefulness in my heart.
If I live, I shall live my life abundantly.
If I die , I shall look towards heaven.
For You are with me, Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.


I shall update more regularly I hope :P
Signing off...